So today has been nine years since you went to Heaven. It has been a long nine years in ways and then in some it ways it has gone by way to quick. I want you to know that I think of you not only on this day and but everyday that I live. Something that happens always reminds me of you. The kids will do something that I think "Mommaw would have loved that" or "I know what Mommaw would have said". I find it overwhelming sad that my children will never meet you in person and know the true beauty of your being. But I find it very comforting when we look at pictures of you and I can tell them stories of you.
I have a deep emptiness inside when I think about how much I miss you. Sometimes I wish that I could just bring you back and that I could let my kids experience Mommaw's homecooked breakfast or homemade Strawberry Shortcake. How selfish of thought that is, I know.
I can only imagine when you passed from this world to your new home and woke up. My heart jumps when I think about your reaction as you opened your eyes to see angels all around you. People always commented on how many angels you had collected but my if they could see you now. So many friends I am sure that you enjoyed seeing and being in their presence once more. How I envy them for having you with them.
Being the person that you are, if God would let you worry in Heaven, I know that you would be watching each and every one of us everyday, praying that we all stay safe, just like you did while you were alive. In so many ways, I realize now how much I took your caring for me for granted and if you were here I would tell you how much I appreciated everytime that you worried for me.
I can only hope that I grow up to be just like you. Loving, caring, thoughtful, putting everyone first, a good cook, a dependable person and someone that people will admire long after I leave this world.
Love,
Chrissy
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